Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Though I Pray My Sins Still Gather:

Though I pray
and though I recite the holy quran to cleanse my soul
and every night though I cry for the dead and the fallen
Eternally I stand to struggle against he who gathers souls to fuel the fire.

And he tries and I cry
Because I dont want to end up in his place

Musa (A.S) tried, and he parted the sea
But yet they still disbelieved

And Yusuf spent years in prison
And though he did not go near her
they placed him in that hole and beat him raw
And while his father Yacqub cried and cried till he went blind
His sons placed their little brother in jeopardy

Because Allah(S.W.A) is merciful people around the world live in ease,
I stand before you a woman who he has blessed with a family who loves her
Yet every second of my life I must fight
and struggle against my very own soul

And though Prophet Muhamed(S.A.W) took that night journey
And he witnessed the flames
and though he failed to laugh from that point
with sadness he cried for his people

Yet here we are night and day engulfed in sin
Our ears here the melody and our body moves to the beat
And while shes my best-friend
My tongue still lashes and I readily stab her in the back
without a moments hesitation or kindness

Though Aisha (R.A) the scholar taught the culamah, of the prophets time
And though her kindness and intelligence far surpassed
Any woman of todays time
And her beauty coverd from the world to see
My sisters in Islam walk about with their chest showing
No modesty to speak of
Where has her hijab gone?
Why does her mother cry for her daughters mortality?
Because she lies with men, her legs open
and her heart closed

And Abubakar As-Sidiq was the truthful one
The Prophet Muhamed (S.A.W) proclaimed him
to be the leader of our Ummah after he past away
His honest soul laid bare for the world to see
And even animals felt his kindess
And my heart bleeds only to go back
In time to stay with the Prophet and his Caliphas
But yet why does my brother emulate that man who is destined for Jahanam?
With his pants draging to the ground and his heart heavy as stone
He fails to stand as a leader to his people
When even salat is to much to ask for
With his heart heavy as stone he destroys his families name
By shooting that last bullet, and now he lays in the grave
His mortality a question we cannot answer....

Impatient I stand:

Impatient I stand
my head shakes back and forth to this tune
yet my heart is still
with no release
I wait for the moment
when u declare those words
so that u may free me from my self-inflicted void
I cant tell u what lies past this door
but I know for sure that you're meant to be mine
and beyond that
life is a foggy road that I cannot see clearly
but take my hand
and you and I will find the way
As I wait for that moment in time
when u free me from my loneliness
As u declare those words
And take me as yours
forever in time in place
within this dimension and others
I will belong to you
with god as our witness
the long road stretches before us
with uncertainties and bends and forks in the road
i freely and gladly plunge into this life and beyond
for to me with you on my side
this road is flourished with pretty flowers
and the breeze smells of the sea and adventure
with a smile on my face and pretty thoughts in my head
I impatiently stand and wait
for u.....

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Tupac- In the event of my Demise

In the event of my Demise
when my heart can beat no more
I Hope I Die For A Principle
or A Belief that I had Lived 4
I will die Before My Time
Because I feel the shadow's Depth
so much I wanted 2 accomplish
before I reached my Death
I have come 2 grips with the possibility
and wiped the last tear from My eyes
I Loved All who were Positive
In the event of my Demise

Tupac- The Rose that Grew from Concrete

The Rose That Grew From Concrete
Did you hear about the rose that grew
from a crack in the concrete?
Proving nature's law is wrong it
learned to walk with out having feet.
Funny it seems, but by keeping its dreams,
it learned to breathe fresh air.
Long live the rose that grew from concrete
when no one else ever cared.

I am She-wolf hear my cry!

I am struggling, drowning in my despair and pain…
I stand before you, a Somali young woman…
whose howl of pain cries through the streets at night.
A proud she-wolf snarling her way through unforgiving walls…

I was born an innocent child
to a beautiful, Somali mother
born happy and free
always forever, happy and free…

But on that one fateful night my innocene was ripped to shreds
By that man whose name I forget…that monster who tippytoed to my bed
Left me torn into pieces…drops of blood on my sheets
that monster under my bed…always a figment of my immagination…
that night he came to life and tore through me…
I never knew that one moment
suspended in time forever
forzen like ice pebbles
on cold winter nights
could define me forever…

Time dwindles on…
pain resonates through minutes, into hours
and now become years…
my country becomes torn by war
by men whose goal in life is to profit from death
the blood of children and women run through rivers
a piercing screem howls in the wind
a struggle for power and money
I ran with my child under my breast with the clothes on my back
and screams of horror like blood stains on my face

My child…
my only reason for life, this bundle of joy whose heartbeat rings through my soul
as musical as wind chimes it brings me happiness…
A single ray of light shines like a beacon through my nightmares
It is hope personified, a smile on my face, a way to freedom
It is a place called Canada…what a funny sound that word makes
It is freedom and hope wrapped as a precious gift from god…
Tick tock…tick tock…tick tock
I wait
and wait
anyday now my lawyer waits for papers
simple papers whored from trees that will define my existence
anyday now…
hope awaits…

hope awaits for the foolish
locked away like a bird in a cage
a freedom song it sings in its desperate atempt to escape
but like a stupid bird I was fooled with false promises of freedom
false hope of happiness

I am a she-wolf… hear my cries through the nights
Howls of pain that bounce back from four walls and heavy chains
Struggle and despair is my existence
I am she-wolf hear my lonely howl…

So let go

so let go
of all the pain
the heart ache
the tears
and the way it hurts
so let go
of days gone
of love lost
the time when u were five
and he hurt you so
let go of words that burn
souls that spill
into rivers of pain
the damned that
pull you towards
so let go
of love lost
and never found
of rain that falls
and tears that you cry
so let go
of that time when she
tried to take you away from him
from field of flowers that grow
from despair
joy that is never found
so let go
so let go
of that day in may
when you were left alone
scared and tired
the anguish that burns
through your body
let go
of days gone by
and that time you tried to fly
and as I try
to get you to understand
to let go
and though rivers flow
and the rain falls
so heartache and pain exist
and i love you so
so let go.....


In this heart of mine pain and love co-exist
twisted together like a deformed pretzel
like identical twins they play together
they fight...and laugh
they share memories
and space in my heart
an ever-lasting love-affair
they fight under-covers
and whisper enduring words...

anguish and joy
love and hate
peace and confusion
lust and love
like polar opposites
u and i exist
like the sun and the moon
we orbit
the same planet
over and over again
i never grow restless of our
endless dance
we fight
we love
tears harvest and grow
a field of happiness
it reaps joy
and satisfaction
ur animosity
ur anger
ur fears
ur loneliness
ur flaws
ur essence
the sun to my world
u make the trees in my heart grow
like global-warming
u burn
bits and pieces of me
love and growth
pain and despair
sadness and sorrow
horror and death
an eternal cycle
our own ying and yang
bonnie and clyde
Ike and Tina
Romeo and Juliet
Tristan and Isolde
Liban and Dalmar
we are our own star-crossed lovers
we dance our eternal dance
until like a supernova
we burn and crash
like giant balls of flames
we ignite the world alight
and when the night sets
darkness falls
death takes all
so like all things i wait
for the moment in time
suspended in time forever
i wait
till u can be mine
like little children we will dance
and play
and laugh
where no pain exists
where hate
and anger
and pain
and sorrow
and despair
only exist
in memorries
lost to a world unknown

to a place...
where we dwell
like little children
our eternal
resting place

u and I will meet
and play together forever
in the gardens of Jannah!


Drowning in my fear and self-hate
Drowning in my despair and pain
In a room full of stifled screams
Echoes of days gone and sleep-less nights
Dreams lie thick in the fog of my nightmares
Of times when the pain in my chest is
Butterflies that bask in the sunlight
Strawberry ice cream in a waffle cone
A child's laughter
Your smile...
Insecurities masked by my smile
My eyes hold together the
Years of anguish
This mind holds together
The secrets of a 25-year-old woman
Locked in this chamber
Of darkness
Deep secrets swimming in a vacuum
tears that drop in silence
stifled by moments frozen in time
moments of horror...
times of excruciating pain
moments of anger...
of unfulfilled desires
moments of joy...
your warmth envelopes me
A cocoon of safety
wrapping me in joy
darkness is peace
It is fear stealing the air from my lungs
It is a time for rest
When sleepy eyes find slumber
It is moments of fear...
It is death gripping your hand...
the eternal slumber
the fear of death
the fear of failure
it is loneliness
a child in the fetal position
it is hate
wrapped in false self-confidence
it is a smile hiding a suicide note
it is you clueless to the fact
and me lost in a sea of despair...
Will I call out for help...
or will silence become my name
lost I become to a world unknown!

Her name was Dalmar Farah

His name was Libaan Omar
A son of a prominent Somali King
He was descended from black royalty,
The souls of black proud warriors and regal Somali queens
A single tear falls on his face as the cold earth comforts his dying body
As death approaches...his mind rushes to her face
An aching emptiness lies within him...
A long life lived with dignity and strength; his only thought was of her…

A single tear welcomes death
As my soul leaves my body, I smile preparing myself to meet my lord
My tears wet the soil around me as my heart begs for her
The pain slowly leaves my body...
As convulsions rock my body, my heart longs to be with her
‘There is no God but Allah’
My soul leaves my body as my time on this earth ends...
I lived a long life...I leave no regrets behind now

Her name was Dalmar Farah
Her skin was like melting ebony chocolate
Her cheekbones were chiselled into his mind....
She was a camel-herder’s daughter...her ebony skin shined as a beacon on dark nights
Her days were spent in the fields...her nights were spent in thoughts of him

My blood flows with the souls of humble farmers
Camel herders who spent their lives on these same green fields
God blessed me today with the warmth of the sun and the companionship of my camels
As I take a deep breath of the fresh air from the Indian Ocean…
My heart expands with love for him
After years of waiting, God will finally reunite us
Tonight my Somali prince waits for me
A warm breeze wafts on my face as I remember moments,
Moments that spill into oceans deep